26 November 2007

The most wasted of all days is one without laughter.

love, love, LOVE... will i survive??
A lot of ink has been exhausted in writing about a variety of subjects like life, death, happiness, and grief. However, the one topic that has remained a favorite with authors, playwrights, poets, and laypeople alike has been: LOVE!While there are those who have been fortunate in finding the love of their life, there are others who are still searching for that someone special. Whichever category you fall into, the allure of the perfect love life fascinates each of us. well, luckily,i'm in a relationship right now. hopefully next month we will be celebrating our 2nd year aniv. oh we will be spending such occasion in different places.hehe one in manila and the other is here, in Gensan.. huhuhu yeah yeah because its been a long time since he left Gensan. if im not mistaken its already 3 months. he went there to apply and to work in a ship. he is a future seaman.
im missing him soooo much. i often spend my day thinking of some ways just to get there in Manila. to check out his situation, to hug him, to kiss him...huhu.how i wish i could see him so soon. i remember the time before he left Gensan, he said when december comes and he still have no work, he'll go home to celebrate christmas and also new year. however, i felt such plan so impossible to happen because of so many reason. well, its money... he had spend alot there since he's been into training.as one of his requirements, he must comply with it before a certain company can hire him plus he will still be taking alot of exam... whenever we talk over the phone, i can vividly sense that he's been hoping so much to work and finally put all his (our) plans into action. he is an ambitious man, very determined, and his patience is almost overflowing... so ideal ... im very much afraid to end such growing relationship. i can say he's more than enough for me.. nothing can beat him. its been so long but we never missed to communicate despite of the hectic scheds we have, the tiredness he is feeling..he is very MA-Effort, sobra.. and hey, we almost tried different ways just to keep in touch.. we used SUncel, and tried all the different unlimited texts and calls[both TM and SC], we email each other[yahoomail and friendster], we go chatting every weekend atleast 1 hour viewing each others cam [except when one of us is really busy] , etc...but know what...it wasn't easy..it wasn't enough... its very very different.but i can i say "at least..."
i've been supporting him all the time but the hardest thing i've done was when i never gave him any reasons for him to have his second thought of not leaving me behind. i did it because i know he should.. i always support him though its pretty hurting. he made his choice to leave but he had never gave me any reasons to feel hopeless, to doubt and to give-up our relationship instead he remained as how he makes me feel important, special and loved. of course it was very far different as when he is nearer with me.. but still i appreciate it and nothing has changed.i guess you are thinking of something like "why i'd let him leave"..well,it was for a certain reason, considering all the reasons [family, future etc.].. it was very hard on my part but as my way of expressing the deep love im feeling towards him, how i trust him, i did support him all the way..cause theres something im certain of..he'll come back. i did touched his life and i'm confident that no one could do more than what i did...and i believe that his promises will come true, in time. God is our strength..
when u get the chance to understand my point... please feel free to give advices. thanks alot. well, do you think i can survive???

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Nova 26 November, 2007 18:44  

that was really touching and hard huh... well, your still lucky why? your man is a VERY responsible guy, in spite the fact of leaving you behind in order for him to make all ur plans come true. everything have to be sacrifice to have and meet whatever they wanted, that way you both would really do appreciate life and each other sooner you both know and commit and fulfill those dreams.\

oh bongga ha! ayaw mong magsulat ha,, btw, i find ur writing GREAT..

Spices of Life 26 November, 2007 23:23  

whew.binasa nya..hehe. well, thanks for imparting your precious time reading my talambuhai.hehe. thank you so much maam. d:)

Anonymous 02 December, 2007 23:15  

hehehe manang.tagaan jud naku ni tym mabasa lng imu blog!..ehehe survive lage na as long as migo tah!ahe pag xmas vicaxon na,laagon taka.. dugai nata ala kita!hmp!hehe talk unta tah,bago ku mu adto ug davao!its bcoz. i cant fool mu heart..ehe btaw ai...

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